February 2012
138 posts
thoughts
Me: I feel like crying
Depression: Do it. No one likes you
Me: I have friends
Depression: No you don't they only keep you around cause they feel sorry for you
Me: You're right
Depression: You know what you need to do, right?
Me: Get the blades?
Depression: Get the blades.
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I’m tired of hearing people telling others, simply stating that some one should kill themselves, of people calling suicide stupid, or sinful. I’m tired of it being a joke. The people who say it normally don’t even know what its like to actually try, or to be in so much pain that you want to die. People have seen others with suicidal thoughts, or self-harming issues, as freaks....
That awkward moment when you can't even kill...
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Cutting Addiction
me: God I'm depressed..today was awful.. and nobody cares
addiction to cutting: I know your hurt let me help you, I love you
me: No you don't, I cant let you come back
addiction to cutting: No one loves you like I do. Let me help you
me: FUCK YOU
addiction to cutting: Come on, you know you want to
me: ....fuck I do
addiction to cutting: there you go now get the knife you've been hiding from me: you know what to do
i hate this
Mind: You want to die. Die. Die. Die.
Me: Yes i know. Thanks.
Mind: Oh you're welcome sweety. How are you going to try this time?
Me: Uhm...
Mind: Yes, try. You also fail. Fail. Fail.
Me: I know.
Mind: I'm sick of being here.
Me: I am too.
Mind: Maybe you'll be successful this time?
Me: Yeah no one will find out.
Mind: You're weak. This is why you're still here.
Me: I know.
Mind: You suck at everything.
Me: I know...
Mind: They're all going to leave you.
Me: Why i must leave them before they can leave me.
Mind: Do it i'm waiting.
Me: I'm tired of waiting any longer.
Mind: Back to the pysch ward you go!
Me: No cuz i will be gone.
Mind: I'll believe it when i see it.
Me: Me too...
i find this funnier than life. →
I find this incredibly funny.
http://thatfunnyblog.tumblr.com/
this made my day
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Morning: Good morning!
Me: Fuck..I'm alive still
Friend: You okay?
Me: Yeah, just tired.
Reality: I'm just tired of living.
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I’m so fucking tired of hiding my depression, I try and hide it every day just so you fucking people stay happy. If I don’t you’ll push and push and push at me till I snap. and it feels like every time you think I might be depressed or sad, you say something to almost one up me.
If you see me not smiling for a week, you confront me and try to “talk about it” when all you do is yell and tell me...
